Working Writer

December 30, 2009


Filed under: personal essay — Tags: — loganchance @ 6:57 am

So I just got myself an iPhone and, while I’ve had a iPod Touch for quite some time now, I hadn’t really given thought to my old blogs until now.

And, well, huh. I had completely forgotten about this one. Since things are going to be changing around here now, I’ll just lay out what it used to be when it was first made.

I had a non-fiction creative writing course in fall of 2007, so, let’s see, I was a junior then at Fresno State. I have a general distaste for the words “creative,” “writing,” and “college” all rolled into one phrase, but I needed some elective units and I was already taking yoga.

Anyway, some assignments were posted here. I’ll probably just keep them.

By the way, for “Zeroes and Ones,” if this happens to pop up in any old classmates’ RSS feeds – the whole frame story was a fabrication. In reality, I’m Linc, Rachel is my friend Sara Fletcher who is now the lead girl on Secret Girlfriend, and I made the whole investigative part of it up because I was busy writing a script and didn’t want to leave the house to go find a story.

(Hell, I don’t even know if the specifics of what Linc and Rachel were doing on the show are true, either. Just, y’know, take the general idea and imagine it was more or less like I wrote.)

So, this is going to be more of a repository of me. The site will probably look a little less douche-y, (was the title intentionally awful because I was making fun of college writers? I don’t know. I was way more of an asshole then) and the posts are probably going to focus around myself trying to break into Hollywood as a writer.

Do I have anymore on this subject? No, I don’t think so. I don’t do sendoffs anymore, so posts are just gonna kinda end.


November 30, 2007

Zeros and ones

Filed under: assignments, literary journalism — loganchance @ 6:57 am

Here it is, if the thingy works right.

Zeroes and Ones

October 4, 2007

Susan Orlean, “Lifelike”

Filed under: assignments, craft responses, literary journalism — loganchance @ 4:43 am

A Soft Touch Duck Degreaser? Really?

Orlean has a very dry sense of humor, never quite mocking the taxidermists but always seeming to allow these people to mock themselves (unknowingly). Her listing of animal parts is disturbing at best, and I have to say, Josh, if you wanted to creep me out this week, you succeeded in spades.

Shari Caudron, “Befriending Barbie”

Filed under: assignments, craft responses, literary journalism — loganchance @ 4:28 am

This was an odd one. It may simply be because Barbies – or any sort of dolls with simulation hair – disturb the shit out of me. Caudron’s tone does have that curious amusement to a point, but felt too detached from the piece. Granted, it’s literary journalism, but this quickly becomes a story that is personal to the people she’s writing about, and to not have her apparently vastly different view contrast against it seems off if she’s not writing a straight-up news feature.

I would have liked it to simply be about Judy, with the Barbie story surrounding it. I think there was humanity in it, whereas the rest of the story had an uncomfortable Christopher Guest vibe to it that just didn’t jive with the strongest point of it – that a community’s a community regardless of its reason for existing.

I just felt that Caudron was very, very uneven in her pacing, her tone, and way off in her focus. This looks more like a pre-write than anything, and I would have liked to have seen more of Judy, where the personality and emotion really lay.

September 6, 2007

Craft Response #1

Filed under: craft responses — loganchance @ 11:26 am

In this round of stories, I must admit a disappointment to most of it.

13, 1977, 21

Lenthem’s story was perhaps the one to connect with emotionally. It doesn’t drag and the crux of it is solid, but his ultimate reflection on his use of watching film in theatres as a means to hide from the problems in his life is glossed over. The use of twenty-one paragraph breaks is arbitrary and hinders the story. It’s clear that more wants to be told but in order to maintain the number scheme a lot has to be left out. This one had potential, such that I thought wasted over a formatting gimmick.

The story in and of itself ranges okay on my charts. I would have liked to have known more about his mother, or his grandmother through whom you can infer about his mother. Or even his relationships with people in general. And if not that direction, than in the other – more into the movies themselves to infer his relationships with people. The date(s) with Alissa is an arbitrary anecdote that wastes at least three of the twenty-one breaks. With a point to tell about your life, and forcing yourself into this sort of formatting, wasting those breaks to make an old joke (since it’s written around at least 1999) about male nerds’ relationship with women in general is silly.

He waffles so much between focusing on the concept of hiding and focusing on trying to connect with people that neither is illuminated sufficiently. The two do not compliment one another, and that paradox in and of itself is not even explored as its own entity. It’s just there.

Going to the Movies

Possibly the only real complete story in my mind, Toth’s use of her partners’ viewing habits highlights her failures with various men. It’s straightforward, not particularly deep, but doesn’t meander and gets out before it can drag. I really don’t have much to say. Aaron’s a prick, Bob’s a prude, Sam’s an asshole, and Susan’ll do fine with her cats.

I’m going to go ahead and admit that the next two stories I tried to read, and glossed over about halfway into both.  I really did try, but then I stopped hating myself. (Plus, it might just be the idea of me commenting on these stories at all that I’m resistant to. Commenting on a two females’ stories about their online romances? I just described LiveJournal.)

Virtually Romance

This one bothers me. Rawlings constantly brings up the twenty-year age difference, but it’s always half-hearted.  There’s never any culture shock, or even discussion of how she’s older than she seems. Twenty years is sizable enough to where the generational gap shows. Particularly in an e-mail relationship, this will get highlighted.

Her break with her boyfriend is also weak. Perhaps because that relationship is weak to begin with and so his jealousy over Wendy’s e-mails feels forced. When he’s the ex and taking in younger women, her hypocrisy over it isn’t even strong enough to have the irony she wants in it. It’s almost as though she’s joking over it with her ex and that sense of irony is simply dressed-up sarcasm, but we never know which it’s supposed to be.

On the Fringes of the Physical World

Worst title ever. If she can’t be bothered to add a few paragraphs breaks here and there, then I’m not going to power through the pain. Not to reuse metaphors, but this is the literary equivalent of a LiveJournal blog. She makes the point early – the Internet man is not half as interesting as the real man, and yet she feels so close to the former – and then proceeds to restate her point, one meandering rambling paragraph after another. “The story of PFSlider still makes me sad.” Nevermind that this was written on page 93 and we knew he was a disappointment on 90. Was the one-paragraph, half-page long bit on how her colleagues did similar things online necessary?

August 31, 2007

“On Subtlety” Liner Notes

Filed under: assignments — loganchance @ 9:57 am

The choice came particularly easy to me in this instance simply as it’s the story that my friend tells to introduce me to his new friends. I don’t know if it characterizes me as well as it used to. I’m far less angry and, probably not coincidentally, my writing is far less externally directed than implied in the piece.

However, it would be wrong to not include this scene when I (must) talk about myself. My high school years were not happy despite the – excuse the cliché – blessing of having a well-adjusted, attentive and endearing family. Those four years of what I call (when I’m feeling hippie) “state-mandated prison,” or perhaps the survival of said, shaped the way I viewed education and possibly, if I ever get out of school, the art of being a normal citizen.

And maybe it characterizes my home enough to get the message across that the town, despite being a small town, wasn’t an inclusive one to its own people, much less outsiders. Smart people were viewed as enemies and unlike most of the other smart people in our high school I simply took up the challenge and got competitive.

“On Subtlety” (Assignment #0)

Filed under: assignments, personal essay — loganchance @ 7:23 am

My legs give out from under me and I hear the collective mood of the circle around me shift. It’s the first time I’ve ever been hit, really good and hit. Everyone – twenty people, maybe – twists their voice like they had been waiting for it. They knew it hurt. My neck pops and when my face lands I cough through the cloud of dust, cough again, throwing in the towel. I see Rachel Stevens squirm thinking I’m looking at her and not into the vanishing point beyond her and I know then I won’t be going to senior prom.

Truth be told, I’m a horrific liar and the names have been changed.

Meanwhile, Jeff Peterson steps over me like he just took out a quarterback. All I need to do is uppercut, and even blind I could lay him out, but I don’t. Couldn’t tell you why. Some sort of male honor code that applies even after a sucker punch to the cheekbone. I don’t think he’s smart enough to have figured it out all on his own, which means someone told him what I meant in creative writing class.

Three thousand words on a homophobic high school sports star still in the closet about his own sexuality. Thinking about it that way, I could have been more subtle.

Jeff keeps walking down Danny Porter’s twisting driveway with horse fences on either side where his piss yellow late-nineties Mustang is waiting for him at its mouth – top down, stained interior and a loud rumbling from a missing muffler. His fan club follows, a harem of rejected cheerleaders and band geeks wanting to be or get the throwaway trim. I’m not sure if they are, but I wrote it that way and I believe everything I read. In fairness, some of them might have made JV. Rachel and a few of her friends – Sandra Dees all – anchored the parade’s tail. Jeff imported a crowd and I’d like to believe Rachel followed out of concern for me. My gut tells me she wanted to know if what I did was true.

Bits of gravel stick to my hand and the Norteno wanna-bes or prospects hang back along the fence line of Danny’s property, talking amongst themselves – maybe we should hop in. They have a tendency of entering the fight when it’s over just to get a few jabs in. I’m probably fifty yards from Danny’s front door, my longest friend, a decade strong, and he walks out with a paintball gun to make a solid point. What it is could be anything: don’t fuck with my friend, the entertainment’s over, you can’t run with jeans around your ankles. They tip their chins up – a bunch of Davids looking down on Goliath – but take off to probably call one of their mothers to pick them up. I see them waiting for a teal minivan at the end of class every Friday.

Danny calls me a dumbass. A familiar mantra.

My hands brush against my jeans. I’m moving on autopilot. I get up to my full five-eight and catch his headshaking stare. I tell him it’s worth it.

He doesn’t say anything else, opting to walk back inside. He’s been on the other side of the fence enough to know lecturing me smacks of pot-kettle syndrome, and these stunts rarely have a habit of getting traced back to me. Sometimes I just want to stand up and hurl waves of profanities at everyone, but that equates to a visit with a vice-principal for discipline, or worse a counselor for counseling, so I pick my battles. I can’t say I lost this one, but checking out Rachel’s face (something I could take a class on) and seeing her expression tells me I’m not getting a ticker-tape parade tomorrow. More than likely glances over shoulders and hushed, quiet whispers in exclusive cliques. Which is to say: High School. It’s been three years. I have to know how this works by now.

The pounding of blood in my head starts to subside. The dust from everyone’s cars settles back to earth. My own piece of shit is still in the middle of Danny’s driveway, probably keyed by everyone who passed by it on the way back to the main road that leads into town. I’ve been here for three hours and somehow standing here makes that time disappear, or just makes it irrelevant. But the sun’s setting with or without me and I’m sure my cell phone with its American flag casing and Soviet national anthem ringtone will start buzzing with questions.

Today, it’s worth it. Who knows how much I’ll pay tomorrow.

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